1. |
runaway
02:39
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runaway runaway runaway
I think a lot about the times I left my country
I think a lot about the things that make me hungry
like food, or truth, only had one as a youth, never knew better
than to question the words and the proof,
in the textbooks they cindered
with which we were aloof,
but still memorized inches upon inches of what they told us we never sought to confuse
or refuse, or refuse, but now I refuse to be another sheep in the void, deck unprepared but just power-point thru, stories untold cos we /
avoid the truth, employ the news, and excuse /
away salaries could be / put in to use
putting calories on plates of victims of systemic abuse,
artists accused, art is refused, hard is to say, heart is obtuse,
hard is to stay, sometimes I want to
runaway runaway runaway
I think a lot about the times I love my / nation,
the ovations given, inspirations driven to patience never
thought I’d be elated to leave,
consequences debated but between love and complication it’s always
simple explanations believed
/ / / / / / /
but I think about the times
we can find within the walls in our minds
past tenses kickin balls
over fences too tall to be weigh
ing us down.
but the weight of the ground, weight off the ground,
still hanging around, hanging a
round, a country world renowned at drowning feelings glass ceilings
only crowning princes appealing to interests of the above,
.gov the only website beloved, airtight restrictions and fairprice decisions made by
politicians lacking conviction. no flaws derided,
but by-laws abided like superstitious impositions never to be dethroned
but it’s still ...
it’s still –
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2. |
home
03:49
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sunsets tinged with feeling low
never felt this kind of light before
wherever we may choose to go
cities like this won’t feel quite like home
sunsets, quiet with the birds
singing softly silent thru their words
sunsets right around the time
you would call me in, the dinner’s mine
if this is home where i must be
where my dreams feel out of reach
if this is home that I must know
why does it make me feel alone
sunrise wants to start anew
I’ve got no time to see the high-rise view
all the troubles we go through
the only truths i know are all untrue
if this is home where i must be
where my dreams feel out of reach
if this is home that I must know
why does it make me feel alone
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3. |
467/8
04:00
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every night, can’t sleep
roll up, get lit
can’t quit, count sheep
like four six seven
every night, can’t sleep
wake up, repeat
roll up, count sheep
like four six seven
it’s been a while, since i was tired,
put my head down, my mind’s inspired
by all these thoughts that keep me circlin, like
(four six seven)
that was a lie, cos I’ve been tired for months
but I close my eyes, and empathize with
paint left to dry on a wall
or a koala bear forced to stay up, through the fall
(four six seven)
see I’ve / tried it all
podcasts and playlists
I prayed to God and like six other deities
no coffee, just gin and some sprite
and the whiskey I drank, I drank straight with no ice
smoking good every night
smoking good every night
only this could keep me out of my mind
goin out of my mind
every night, can’t sleep
roll up, get lit
can’t quit, count sheep
like four six seven
four hundred and / sixty seven days straight I got fucked up every single night.
I feel like that shit speaks for itself.
yeah.
it’s been a while, since I got faded
took a good look in the back of my eyelids
couldn’t find it, my mind it somehow
it’s been a while, and these days
I roll over on my dreams they
wake me, but at least I’m not
that hazy anymore
every night can’t sleep
hole up, toxic
i quit, can’t quit
like four six seven
eight days eight days
a daze a daze
eight days a week I was with myself
eight days a week I was with myself
eight days
haze too thick I still breathe in, I don’t seek my health
I just keep myself dazed, eight days a week I was with myself
eight days a week i was with myself
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4. |
leaves
02:31
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leave me the way you left me
leave me with no regretti
leave me on Thursdays and shut the door beside me
leave me alone with worst days and first tastes of
find me decline me inspire me, leave me leave me, yeah
leave me the way you left me, leave me the way you left me
leave me with things inside me leave me do not deprive me
leave me don’t fight me
leave me alone to hide behind the sorry
self I put up to put up with you put up with me too much I
leave me the way you left me, leave me the way you left me, i
leave me the way you left me, leave me the way you left me, i
leave me and fly out my body leave me and fly out my body
leave me and fly out my body, leave me and fly out my –
my body’s a vessel I wrestle with
constantly entangled espresso and the peanut with caramel
fell swoop and a loop away from hell
my body’s a smell I can’t take to
and take too long to figure out the
wrong things with my self, with my health
I got the wrong things on my shelf
sing songs to get along, myth, get no wealth
I don’t get strong i just sink and I dream of esteem
and the things that I think will redeem me but mean-while I
sleep and I sleep and it seems like I slip right between all the seams
that are holding me in and I breathe and I sin, and I breathe, and I leave, and I –
leaves falling off the branch
never had a chance, never had a
leaves, softly on the grass,
only time will pass, only time will
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5. |
fall
03:05
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never-mind, never-mind, never-mind, yeah yeah
never-mind the things, never-mind the things
don’t trip too long you’re gonna sink, don’t trip too long you’ll
flip the script and think to drink away the sins
never-mind the things behind your bed and in your dreams
never-mind, never-mind, never-mind, yeah yeah
never-mind all of the
things that ya think, things that ya bring
things that ya sing to sleep, every-night too bright
every-thing too dim, always out of / breath
never-mind the traf-fic too thick to bring me back
death is a topic always on the top of my neck
never-mind the hair on the floor
still room for more trash in the bin
bottles of gin on my window block out the night
block out the light, block out the light
yeah yeah
never-mind all of the d/oubts in my mind
all of the clouds in my head will embrace me
and take me away to a better place than the one I a/m at
I have all of these regrets but when I fall I try and
I can’t recall all of the things that make me wanna (die)
/ wanna see the light of the sun one day
cuz I haven’t seen it in a while
it’s getting harder to smile when I’m by myself
but the things on my shelf will keep me away from
the pain of being awake for too long
I put on a song when I’m feeling low
I don’t think you know, that every night
I face this chill, it feels better to fall
than to stay still just close your eyes
and keep in mind the things you
forget you might find
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6. |
stay
02:47
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I got this room for a weekend
we’ll call it home for a weekend, yeah
I’ve got your name on my day’s end, yeah yeah
so won’t you stay with me
stay, stay with me, mmmm
and oh this air that we’re breathin
we’ve got this love for a season, yeah
we’ll build this house on a feelin’
so won’t you stay with me
stay, stay with me
five years no date
big moon too late
got left on the sidewalk, yeah
dry tears won’t wait
too soon mistakes
were made, they’re my fault, yeah
I thought I’d stay /
entrenched
in this purgatory
but the story’s not right
cuz you’re the light beside my bed that keeps me warm at night
and you’re the right inside my head
(right inside my head)
that stops me fallin behind
and when you fell into my world / you made it through the atmosphere
/ so won’t you stay right here with me
ooh
oh, stay
yeah
we will build this
house on a feeling
low walls, no ceiling
take all you feel in
side your heart, and we’ll write this from the start
never had the patience for books
but with you I’ll take my time, read it line by line
and write an essay or two
cuz you’re my mainstay gainst all of these things that’re gettin me down, yeah
all my chains they break
(all my chains they break)
my feet are getting up off the ground
and when I fly you take my fears and disappear them
so right here you stay can? cuz
we’ve got this room for a weekend
we’ll call it home for a weekend, yeah
I’ve got your name on my day’s end, yeah yeah
so won’t you stay with me
(oh won’t you stay with me, oh won’t you stay with me)
stay, stay, stay stay with me, mmmm
and oh this air that we’re breathin
we’ve got this love for a season, yeah
we’ll build this house on a feelin’
so won’t you stay with me
(oh won’t you stay with me, oh won’t you stay with me)
stay, stay with me
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7. |
peacock
02:54
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peacock in the cage
we were from a young age
peacock in the cage, yeah
when i was seven yeah they sent me to school
big cage in the front, yeah, and there were two
big birds in the, peacocks in the
with their feathers all
spread, they must’ve thought we the youth
bright colours find us closer but it made me confused
early morning sunset, they never moved, too stuck in the
too stuck in the
never room, never
space, and their moon-glazed eyes looked past
never knew they sighed like (peacock) never heard them cry, yeah
never heard them cry
eight years old, i failed my first test, going home, stressed
saw a poster on the wall by the peacocks’ nest
Be the best, don’t be like the rest
peacock in the cage,
we were from a young age,
peacock in the cage
nine years old, momma signed me up for holiday class
me and sis, makin worksheets n holiday math
sunset comes, she gets a pencil cause she’s smart
and I just cry in the backseat
ten years old and sundays are spent in the study
air-conditioned, pens gripped till the ink runs
out. but there are pens stacked to the ceiling
a feeling I can never shake, on afternoons too long
like I should be somewhere with coffee i can’t afford,
when I was eighteen I learned it feels good to go home long after the sun-set
and I was proud of how much my hand ached, the ink-stains on my palms like
proof of my worth
and god’s green earth was not something I saw often
instead lost in pages and sheets written just to be thrown
some of my friends set them on fire and burned them slow
but I kept them in my closet for years
because i still wake up fists clenched and anxious
I still wake up fists clenched and anxious
peacock in the cage
we were from a young age
peacock in the cage, yeah
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8. |
do you dream
01:13
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I still have A level dreams
(yeah same
but it’s so nice to wake up from those
like oh god, the relief)
the pure relief
I had a dream the other day that we were still in school with you
and at one point
and we were all like, fucking around and everything
and I was like, wait yam
how much time do you have left
you’re like, orh, I got one semester left
and I was like
how can you have one semester left la bodoh
if I’m still here
and I was like
oh wait
I’m asleep
I really scolded you
No since starting work I’ve had a lot of very mundane dreams
Whereas when we were in school I would have these
very like fantastical grand adventure dreams
but then since starting work
I’ll very often have dreams about the next day
and then I’ll wake up
and it will be the next day
and I’ll have drea-
and I’ll have long – I’ll have dreams about meetings
I’ll have dreams about you know
these emails I send
and then the next day I just send the emails
that’s fucking shag right?
that’s shag
I feel like I dream of ghosts
as in like, different forms
just like
of things past
or things that I think I know
but actually are not
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9. |
do you drive a nice car
05:13
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do you drive a nice car
do you like to go to the spa
do you sleep alone at night
with your bible beside
do you have a big house
with all the dollars that you’ve compiled
I know you don’t miss dad that’s alright
but do you think about us at night
dear mom
I been thinkin bout the last time I saw you
thinkin that it was the last time before you
cut me off, off the phone, shut me off, all alone
never thought I’d be the one, without you to call
my best friend said I really did change a lot
my hair length ‘sgone long to short, long to short
yuh yuh, long to short, long to short
uh
the first two years were the worst
birthdays no words said, you were a verse, too late
the birds fed grew up and flew to school
while you just sat and tried to sue
and take your rightful part, with your hard heart
turned the light to dark, cause I could not par-take in
this wake for the love you had, yuh
hearing you then only made me mad, uh
hearing how you
hated dad to his guts
that part’s alright, cos he fucked you up
kept you uptight all night, led you to your faith too
twenty seven years he was never ever faithful
so you made moves, set yourself free, I support that
forget all the things you’d lose, I would call that
natural collateral, things that make you fall back
but how come when I call you don’t call back
on track to a void,
started when you only cared about the coin
only had his money on your mind
declined to find peace, piece of me
feels like a signed lease, tossed aside
when you’re done, since you’ve won, yuh
did you think about the trees that you’ve burned, the
tears you’ve earned
three and half years to the day
since I saw your face huh
do you drive a nice car
do you like to go to the spa
do you sleep alone at night
with your bible beside
do you have a big house
with all the dollars that you’ve compiled
I know you don’t miss dad that’s alright
but do you think about us at night
i am scared of the dark
of dreams too faded, scenes unshaded by trees cut down
too soon, stumps left in the ground, the only sound I hear the slight
ringing in my right ear, bright lights and white tears, light singing in
your back-seat keeping me asleep, too deep to wake up
but when i do, always not by choice
from your packed lunches and wake-up calls
I realize I don’t recall the sound of your voice
do you miss me?
or do your dreams sound like ice cream at the mall
trust falls in empty hallways tall trees and quiet rides in your car
beside a slow breeze much stronger I no longer know who you are
so tell me why i still dream of you
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10. |
day/dreams
02:18
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do you –
do you dream bro?
huh?
do you dream?
I don’t dream
I am living in reality
dreaming can good sometimes
too many dream
you can hanging yourself one day
some days I wake up and feel like I’m dreaming still
stasis replaces the world that I know
and I don’t know if my words are real
realness becomes immaterial
cereal thoughts with no milk
seep through the surface my
purpose is clouded with
all of these shrouded entrails
some days I wake up and feel like I’m living too still
moving between what it seems to me ecstasy and some experience of hell
the day job I hold stands between what I want for myself and my self wants the thrill
of taking control of a life that regardless of my frame of mind has no will
some days I wake up and feel like I’m dreaming still
dreaming of, dreaming of
dreaming of
some days I wake up and feel like I’m dreaming still
I dream I dream I dream I dream
of blue skies and deep rivers
technicolor life cut into telephone receivers
hung dry with no occasion
whole worlds mine for the taking
I got out of my depression
but my hands are still shaking
back aching
from this weight on my shoulders
growing older in this country, means
only left-overs for the hungry, dreams
sent over big oceans, seams splitting from
devotions given to a lifestyle dictated
day job keep you sated
satiated, no time for dreams
but I’ve waited this long
for rights to be wrong no longer
stronger men have born and gone
but my fears are still here
while my peers veer off-shore
I dream of more
but I always wake up in –
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11. |
tears
03:12
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tears are words the heart can’t express
every time we look back
on this moment
it will be a moment of anguish
I mean, for me it is a moment of anguish because
all my life
(I dream I dream I dream I dream)
I dream of the day things will be farther
dream of the day things will be better
dream of the day, where people smile at each other
dream of the day, I dream of the day
where tears won’t need to fall from my face
and I dream of the day won’t walk away from fears or
fears are replaced by warm embraces
taste of home means
not torn between day and dream
day or dream, day or dream i
I dream of the day it’s all behind us
dream of the day you won’t define us
sick of the ways, the different ways you bind us
with words like knives they cut
inside and find us bleeding dreams they spill
out my head
I breathe out instead
I stay out my bed
I just make my bread
I just make my bread
I just take, you said
I take what you said
I regurgitate
I re -
I dream of the day I’ve got a view
I dream of the day I give a shit
I dream of the day I’ve got a kid
I dream of the day I’ve got a house and a car
and a country club, and a credit card
and I don’t live very
far from my folks house
only things left on my mind are my own doubts
regrets in scenes I’ll never act out
how it goes down, everybody knows how
everybody knows
how you play sports you better tap out
an artist better get out
won’t get far this scene’s already bled out
this city everybody so stressed out
so stressed out
confess now, confess now
never had a dream, never stepped out
never made a scene, never expressed doubt
never had a dream, never stretched out
never in between
never spoke with my chest out
never broke routine
never had a dream, never stepped out
never made a scene, never expressed doubt
never intervened
only went unseen
never fleshed out thoughts, never took my shot
only went out cold, only went out cold
stories left untold, never wrote my plot
let my fears control, did what I was told
did what I was told
my tears are made of gold
so when I cry at least I’m in control
of my time, my necktie will console
it takes too much to be bold
my tears are made of gold
so when I cry at least I’m in control
of my time, my necktie will console
it takes too much to be bold
I dream of the day things will be farther
dream of the day things will be better
dream of the day, where people smile at each other
dream of the day, I dream of the day
where tears won’t need to fall from my face
you see, the whole of my adult life
I have believed in
you know, it’s a people who
connected by geography
and ties of
kinship
would you mind if we stopped for a while?
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12. |
moon
02:41
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when the world gets crazy
I’ve been thinkin lately wont you dive in
with me
and this sinkin feelin
I can feel it changing
I can breathe in
all these thoughts I’ve hated
all these days you’ve waited
I can see the sky
and the stars
theyre takin all the days we gave them
to the night
and I am singing ooh
maybe just for a while
we can cross paths in the night
maybe just for a while
as the earth turns from dark to light
when the world gets crazy
I’ve been thinkin lately wont you dive in
with me
and this sinkin feelin
I can feel it changing
I can breathe in
ooh
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13. |
loves
04:13
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the loves of my life are all i have in life
the loves of my life they make my lefts turn right
the loves of my life they only ask for my tiiiiiiimeeee
the loves of my life are all I have
the loves of my life are all I have
to have the time to find
never mind the work on my mind
I’ll fall behind lines that
confine me, come find me
have a
half a mind to shine, but
the things that I let go
all in good time, from the get go
I only saw signs that I
had no steps to take going down
uphill climb left turn, turn around
there’s no/ thing left to say that can bring me down
‘cept the things that I think still make me frown
still make me drown, yeah
ten years old, had a dream, took ten years
to admit that I sing
and ten years more that’ll bring me crowns
but not from kings
see everything that I did know
everything new from the shop thru the window
everything blue from the top to the tip-toe
I tip-toe downtown when the wings glow
got a long shot and its hot but I swing tho, I swing tho, yeah
the loves of my life are all I have
the loves of my life are all I have
to have the time to find
never mind the work on my mind
I’ll fall behind lines that
confine me come find me
have a half a mind to shine, but
the things that I let go, all in good time, from the get go
and you can’t slow down or you
get slow
or you get mowed down and you / can’t grow
I been givin out love like I’m Hasbro
with both arms I know there’s no harm
in tellin my bros that I / love you
but it’s hard tho
when it’s hard tho, have a part that’ll shine thru
of my heart, it reminds you, of, all, of the
sparks that’s inside u
sharks terrify you, still love the ocean
commotion crazy won’t chase you away
never heard you say yeah
but that’s cuz I don’t call
even tho I said I would
I don’t call y’all as much as I should
cos the
loves of my life they’re all I have the
loves of my life are all I have to
have to find the time
never mind the work on my mind
I’ll fall behind lines that
confine me come find me
have a half a mind to shine, but
the things that I let go, all in good time, from the get go
and I let go of and I let go
and I let go of, and I, let go
off of the rail, off of the ledge, back on the trail, words on the
page turned for a new leaf, leaves burned and I’m using
things learned for my own sake
reach out when I’m okay
reach out, I’ll be okay
reach out I’ll be okay
still got a dream, still got a dream, yeah
still as it seems, still as it seems
still got a dream, yeah
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14. |
dawn
03:03
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woke up this morning with the sun on my face, yeah
i tore off all my gauze and said that I’m on the way, yeah
sun gon shine again, sun gon shine again, yeah yeah
sun gon shine again, sun gon shine again, yeah yeah
woke up this mornin feelin like a
new man with a
new plan, yeah
nothin gonna hold me down when I gotta dance, yuh
impress me with those sorry eyes, inside find
me another time, another life
woke up this mornin feelin, woke up woke up
feelin, sunlight on my skin
cuz
sun gon shine again, sun gon shine again, yeah yeah
sun gon shine again, sun gon shine again, yeah
every day, need a new way, need a new day, yeah yeah
got a dream, gotta make it in, yeah, know it seems kinda dim
but the light shine, and we can’t stop, tryna find the things
that might make it bright, that keep us from fallin
cos I woke up this morning feelin
like (yuh)
sun gon’ shine again, sun gon’ shine again, yeah yeah
sun gon’ shine again, sun gon’ shine again, yeah yeah
so
my question to young people would be
do you dream?
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yams Singapore
yams is a multi-hyphenate producer and singer-songwriter.
Disappointed by the typical templates
for success and normality imposed on him, yams brings that same energy to his songwriting. He doesn't subscribe to any single genre, instead allowing the story of each song to shape its musicality.
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