tears are words the heart can’t express

every time we look back
on this moment
it will be a moment of anguish
I mean, for me it is a moment of anguish because
all my life
(I dream I dream I dream I dream)

I dream of the day things will be farther
dream of the day things will be better
dream of the day, where people smile at each other
dream of the day, I dream of the day
where tears won’t need to fall from my face
and I dream of the day won’t walk away from fears or
fears are replaced by warm embraces
taste of home means
not torn between day and dream
day or dream, day or dream i
I dream of the day it’s all behind us
dream of the day you won’t define us
sick of the ways, the different ways you bind us
with words like knives they cut
inside and find us bleeding dreams they spill
out my head
I breathe out instead
I stay out my bed
I just make my bread
I just make my bread
I just take, you said
I take what you said
I regurgitate
I re -
I dream of the day I’ve got a view
I dream of the day I give a shit
I dream of the day I’ve got a kid
I dream of the day I’ve got a house and a car
and a country club, and a credit card
and I don’t live very
far from my folks house
only things left on my mind are my own doubts
regrets in scenes I’ll never act out
how it goes down, everybody knows how
everybody knows
how you play sports you better tap out
an artist better get out
won’t get far this scene’s already bled out
this city everybody so stressed out
so stressed out
confess now, confess now
never had a dream, never stepped out
never made a scene, never expressed doubt
never had a dream, never stretched out
never in between
never spoke with my chest out
never broke routine
never had a dream, never stepped out
never made a scene, never expressed doubt
never intervened
only went unseen
never fleshed out thoughts, never took my shot
only went out cold, only went out cold
stories left untold, never wrote my plot
let my fears control, did what I was told
did what I was told

my tears are made of gold
so when I cry at least I’m in control
of my time, my necktie will console
it takes too much to be bold

my tears are made of gold
so when I cry at least I’m in control
of my time, my necktie will console
it takes too much to be bold

I dream of the day things will be farther
dream of the day things will be better
dream of the day, where people smile at each other
dream of the day, I dream of the day
where tears won’t need to fall from my face

you see, the whole of my adult life
I have believed in
you know, it’s a people who
connected by geography
and ties of
kinship

would you mind if we stopped for a while?